To do Your will, oh God

So, I’ve realised why only a few people among billions seem to do great things with their lives. I don’t think it’s something that always applies but it’s definitely a big factor. So what’s the reason? Showing up is HARD! That is something adulthood has been teaching me lately.

‘God, I know there’s prophecy over me, but I just want to sleep.’ I’ve felt this way countless times this year and it’s funny because 2024 has been the least stressful year in a very long time but it’s also a year I’ve felt like I needed to encourage myself extra. Could it be because it’s the first time I’m having to solely be responsible for my actions and not rely on any existing structures? Before this year, I’ve always been safeguarded by structures that told me when to pray, when to read, when to socialise and even when to eat.

But now in 2024, as I really get into full adulthood, I’ve been left to make all these decisions by myself. It’s now I began to realise, how easy it is to not show up, to always take the easy route, to say no to destiny. *sighs in adulthood.*

But that’s why the Holy Spirit is a convictor. He encourages and convicts and whispers to me, ‘Favour, is this really what you’re meant to be doing?’ I’m not going to lie, it’s not always clear what I’m supposed to be doing but there’s this quiet discontent that refuses to allow me spend all my days watching Netflix. When I say discontent, I don’t mean never be content with where you are, because that’s the opposite of what Christianity teaches. What I mean is, never allowing complacency to seep in, especially because we’re so young.

I just keep thinking, I’ve not even gone anywhere and I already want to give up. It made me wonder if this is something other people face and they end up not going after their dreams. As I said in the beginning, I’m sure there are other factors but this definitely has to be part of them. It takes bravery to change your life, it takes strength to show up everyday because frankly, success is hard work and requires a lot of sacrifice which isn’t something easy to do at all.

I remember growing up as a child, everyone who was asked the secret to their success always said hard work. I always wondered if there was no other way that one could succeed and make it in life. By the time I got to university, even I had to admit, the way to success is truly hard work. This looks different for everyone but it definitely takes intentionality.

In every area of our lives, we have to show up, every day. I won’t lie to you, tiredness is a force and giving up sounds nice but I think we shouldn’t. I once had Papa say, we need to pay the price for the destiny God has given us. A lot of times, the price is pretty high but I’m convinced, God can and does help us, we just need to keep calling on Him.

I pray for me and you today, may God give us the grace to pay the price everyday. For in there, we’ll find fulfilment, in there, we’ll find true joy.

On another note, this website turned 2 this month! It’s something I’m really happy about and just thankful to God for making it possible. He really showed up for me again. I’m excited and just really hoping that I’ll get to do more with it over the next couple of years. Thank you for always reading, it means the world to me.